I’m a child of the former GDR*. My family were believers even back then, hence why they were very interesting for a certain Little Miss “Wanting To Know It All”. During the 70s my Mom heard a prophecy Reinhard Bonnke shared. He had received a very clear word from God, that the two German countries would be reunited. How that was supposed to happen was of course a question only God could answer (Isn’t that the same with every prophecy?), but we believed it, prayed over it and expected it to come to pass.
When it finally happened, we sat around the coffee table – crying our eyes out. As a 10 year old I was of course wondering why Mom was actually crying. For this always meant that we were finally going to be able to travel to the West and I could finally buy a Barbie husband for my Barbie. … the hearts of children!
During my childhood I had unconsciously received some form of an apathy towards our country (the GDR). This wasn’t something passed to me by my family, but it was just something that developed over time. We were free now and my only desire as a Teenager was to get away from were we lived, preferably to go to some other nation somewhere.
During my youth I started to imagine where I could be living and was surely happy to “finally get away from here”. During the time before and after The Turnaround that’s exactly what happened. More and more people left the country because there were better jobs available elsewhere. Many areas in the east of Germany were literally dying out, people of the age group below 30 didn’t exist anymore. Many places turned into sad and lifeless regions.
But despite thinking about escaping this country I always desired for God to touch our nation with His love. And I didn’t just want this for the East of Germany, but the whole re-united country of Germany.
Over and over again I had to endure how others sneered at me for coming from “The East” and made some cruel comments, too. They reached their target and were quite hurtful at times. As of course it was still my home country, despite all the thoughts of escape going through my mind.
Sometimes people from other countries would visit and praise the beauty of Germany. To that I would usually show a friendly smile, whilst thinking to myself how ridiculous this was and that there were far nicer countries out there….
At the age of 21 I went to a School of Ministry (similar to a discipleship course) in Canada. I loved staying there, the people were all so relaxed and not as stuck up as the people back in Germany. After 4 months at the school we were separated into groups and sent to many different places across the world in order to put into practice what we had been learning. My group went to Oklahoma, USA. There we were loved to bits, spoiled, were given gifts and literally received more than what we gave away.
One day there was an intercession conference during our time there. The lady guest speaker was awesome and I loved all the things she researched in order to find out what was going on in the spiritual world in her city.
She had a real passion for her city. One sentence out of her mouth broke my hatred for Germany. She said: “If you want God to do something in your nation, it is your job to love it and to stand your ground for it in intercession.”
This caused me to break down in front of the stage. YES, I wanted God to change my home country. But the kind of attitude that I was displaying towards it, was causing more harm instead of calling in the blessings of God. I ended up crying and I cried a lot. I turned away from my hateful attitude and asked God to forgive me.
When I returned to Germany after I had finished the school, it was as if my eyes had been opened once again for the beauty of our nation. I started to love our country, to pray for it and to see the positive changes that were happening
I had the privilege to work at quite a few Christian conferences and workshops. I experienced how God was healing our land and it’s people. Again, I’m talking about both sides of Germany and also the healing for the wound which was there between the two sides of the nation and which is still partially there.
My former apathy turned into an affectionate love. God had filled my heart with love for my nation and especially for “my people” – the East of Germany.
When my husband and I prepared to get married, we were asking God and each other where we would end up living. He had been living in the UK for 6 years until short before our wedding day. Therefore, we were searching for the will of God in this situation.
Both of us have a heart for and a call to the nations of this world. But we also have a clear focus and sense of something that is causing us to believe God has called us to Germany. We were both born and raised in the East, here we want to be a blessing for our country.
We are really excited looking at what He is doing, if we let HIM have HIS will without hesitation and let Him work out what He wants to do.
The purpose of my little story is to bless you and encourage you to let HIM use you where you are currently living. Be a blessing and watch how He is using you.
Not everyone is called into the international mission field. The people outside our doorstep need Jesus, a touch from Heaven. Where we are a blessing, we can also bring God’s love, pray for the people around us and change the atmosphere by the help of God. Bless the people around you, love them and God is with you and makes change happen!
*GDR = The German Democratic Republic (GDR; German: Deutsche Demokratische Republik [ˈdɔʏtʃə demoˈkʀaːtɪʃə ʀepuˈbliːk] or DDR), generally known in English as East Germany, was a state within the Eastern Bloc during the Cold War period. From 1949 to 1990, it administered the region of Germany which was occupied by Soviet forces at the end of the Second World War—the Soviet Occupation Zone of the Potsdam Agreement, bounded on the east by the Oder-Neisse line. The Soviet zone surrounded West Berlin, but did not include it; as a result, West Berlin remained outside the control of the GDR.